Laminin. It’s something we all have. It’s the molecule protein that holds humans together. I remember watching Louie Giglio’s video years ago about his talk with a molecular biologist. It led him to study this cell adhesion molecule. When he showed a picture of this molecule, I felt the power of our Creator’s detail design. A cross shaped molecule.

Laminin. The molecule that holds us together!

AL Amyloidosis. Last year when my husband was diagnosed with this rare disease, I started my research. In layman’s terms, the structure is made up of kappa and lambda light chains. When the count of these light chains get out of balance, something is wrong. With this disease, it’s the lambda that has misfolded and created amyloid proteins that is distributed in the body. As it flows through the blood it starts attacking organs.

The more I researched, my mind went back to that cross shaped molecule. What was created to hold us together had broken. And without intervention, my husband was on a path that was fatal.

Now we are 11 months post transplant. Yet this week we heard of a new bump in the road. The goal of transplant is to flush out the broken cells and replace them with clean cells. This helps get light chains balanced again. It all seemed to be going well. Till the appendix ruptured. And fluid on lungs built up. And those falling light chains stalled out.

Now we are facing another biopsy as tests revealed a spot in the lungs that might actually be producing more light chains.

And I sit here reminding myself to get back to that cross. My faith must not misfold. I must cling to the cross. That is what holds us together.

My mind has been in a fog for two days processing it all. I believe we finally found the root the lungs issue. Yet I have to guard my thoughts. It would be easy ask God, “Really?! Hasn’t there been enough?!” But then I remember the cross. His cross. His body was broken there. For me. For my husband’s healing. And that is where I must remain.

For it really is His cross that holds me together

You might find your life broken. Nothing in balance. I challenge you remember the cross. It will carry you.