Day +97 A light in the midst of a tough day!! As I sat next to the bed yesterday praying off and on with Ralph, I heard a knock on the door. Nothing new. You get knocks all day long as each nurse, doctor, PCA, etc, come in. Yet as the person walked around the…
Category: Refining
Count it Joy
Day +90 90!! We just hit the first milestone!! Yet the weekend has been rough. He has struggled for breath to the point of gasping for air often. Whether this is a result of the fluid in his lungs finally breaking up and coming out or the bad allergy season or a combination, we don’t…
Victory
Last week I realized that my concept of victory has shifted. A friend messaged me on my birthday with a note that she was praying this coming year would be one of many victories. Immediately the thought that popped into my mind was, “We have those now.” The thought surprised me and I had to…
No Words Needed
For someone who loves to write, words have not been easy lately. My mind has often hit a wall. The best way to describe it is to compare it to watching a scene where someone is being chased. As they are running as hard as possible to escape, they are suddenly stopped and cannot choose…
All the Same
There has been a song on repeat this weekend after one line of the lyrics kept coming back to me over and over. I ended up just sitting there listening to the song and feeling His comfort wash over me. Hands lifted in thankfulness, all I could do is sit there and thank my God…
Choosing Stones
Sleep just wasn’t coming. My mind was doing hurdles through what seemed like an obstacle course of information. The first consultation with the stem cell transplant specialist left me feeling completely overwhelmed and inadequate for the task that was about to be set before me. As I lay there, all I could even pray was,…
….And Peace Comes
At times it has been difficult to wrap my brain around all that has happened in the last two years. The last 7 months especially have spiraled quickly like a storm that completely surrounded us too fast to prepare for it. In the midst of the whirlwind, I have watched my husband physically struggle day…
Even There
The call came Monday afternoon. A representative from Ochsner in New Orleans was calling to set up our first consultation with their facility. It was time to face the reality of what is coming after chemo. Stem cell transplant. Reality started setting in. Like a heavy wet coat, I felt the weight of what was…
Just for Me
Enemies. They come in different forms. For us, our current enemy is not one of human nature that we can sit down and attempt to reason with. Instead this enemy came in slowly under the radar. It showed itself gradually over the last two years in different forms. Today we are tackling it week by…
Always ‘n Forever
Today, thirty-four years later, we find ourselves facing new challenges. This new place was a surprise. It’s not a place we ever looked down the road and saw in our future. Yet here we are hanging onto that covenant and to each other.
In Secret Strength 